Secret Rantings

If I were a person who swears I would insert a few expletives right about now!
I have a friend who says she wants to change she wants to go to church, but it seems it's only that way when she's around me and she isn't making the changes she needs to. It's killing me. I want her to be happy, I think she realizes that she feels good at church and that she isn't happy. But she's hardly doing anything about it. It's so frustrating and she is hanging out with these people who do not have her best interest at heart. It's just making me so mad. I know that her coming back to church will make her happy that she has so much potential, but when she hangs out with those people and she's here she's stagnant and I don't want that for her. But I can't force her to do anything and I can't really say any of this to her, all I can do is just be supportive and be here no matter what, because I will be here for her no matter what choice she makes. I just hate it when people take what they have for granted. On my mission I met people who were hungering for the gospel they wanted it they needed it and it just irks me when people just throw it away. This is so precious. This is everything.

So she tells me today that she can't make it to church because she's so depressed so of course I call her and she doesn't pick up, in fact she ignored my call. She finally picked up except she had her friend answer the phone, one of the friends that the more she tells me about the more I don't like, the one who is one of the main ones who keeps dragging her into her bad habits. I finally got him to give her the phone I tried to reason with her. I've been there I KNOW that being at church helps but she just said she'd try to get there. She never showed up. She didn't even tell me why she was so depressed.

I just ugh! Every freaking person on this planet has a full plate. EVERYONE has a thousand reasons to be depressed or stressed out. It all depends on what you DO with it. I am SO sick and tired of mopy people complaining about things stuff that comes with everyday life.
Now I know that there is some depression that you can't just talk through or just let go, there's honest to goodness clinical depression that you have to have medication to get over. So it's kinda hard for me not to just look at these people and tell them to either a: go to a doctor and get some good meds and get over it, or b: find a good counselor maybe both!

Either way the thing I want to say to a few people that I really can't is GET OVER YOURSELF. I am so sick of people only being into the reasons why THEY are mad or what THEY are going through. That's not friendship. That just shows me that they are too into themselves to hear anything else going on around them.

Sorry, I'm not sure what that dissolved into but I just needed to rant. So...I'm going to go now before I get started off again!