Secret Future

Ok, so! I feel like this first real blog should be something monumental! Something attention catching! Something fantastic! Execpt...none of the things on my mind fit that description! :S
Being home from a mission sucks. I'm just gonna tell you that right now! I am not a fan! Especially now when it's so hard to find a job! Not to mention, all of my friends are away at school and or married! Everyone inside my inner circle of friends got married while I was gone. I thought that was rather rude of them but hey! Whatcha gonna do about it right?
So I've applied to BYU and BYU-Idaho. Which is actually quite shocking for me! First of all I always swore that I would NEVER go to any BYU. Then, I said I'd NEVER live in Provo. Now I find myself crossing my fingers that I get in! I hardly recognize myself!
So I've had my Transcript sent and everything is in. Except for my SATs. Which should have been there this week. I had to pay ten freaking dollars to send the stupid things for them to take two weeks to push a freaking button and send my scores. I could have had them there in two days but that would have cost me another thirty dollars! I'm sorry, but I have a little bit of a problem with that! So, here I am waaay past the deadline waiting for my SATs to get to BYU.
Which has meant that my life has pretty much been put on hold till I find out if I have gotten in and where I've gotten in.
It's a little scary honestly, someone sitting in some room is going to be looking at everything I've sent and make a decision that will decide so much of my future. I mean think about it, depending on where I get accepted determines the kind of classes I take, the kind of education I get, the kind of school that I might eventually transfer to, the kind of people I meet, who I date, and possibly who I marry.
I'm all into that whole trust in the Lord thing. I've just been doing so much of it for so long. It seems that the Lord really likes to try to see if I'm going to jump off the cliffs he wants me to jump off of. I mean just going on a mission was a huge leap for me.
I just want to know. I just want to know where I'm going. I want to know when I'm going. I applied for the summer sessions for both, but BYU-I starts in April and BYU starts in May! It could be mid-march by the time I find out! That would give me litterally about two weeks to find somewhere to live, and to find a way to pay for school. Kinda a little scary! So if I get accepted I'm thinking the chances that I'll be accepted for the summer term is a bit slim...
I feel like it would help so much to just have something I'm working towards ya know?
But I'll try to wait patiently! Anyway, so that's just a bit of what's on my mind at the moment!

Shhh...