UGH! I am sooo not happy. My father tries to set me up at every opportunity! And THEN he tells the whole freaking world about it! I am so sick and tired of him not having a filter! He tells everyone EVERYTHING about my life! Nothing is sacred with him! NOTHING!
I'm trying to go to a new ward, make new friends so that I won't slip back into being who I was before my mission and my dad meets this guy who is in that ward just by chance. It's not bad enough that my dad tells this guy that he should say hi to me if he sees me around, he shows the guy pictures of me! Then he adds the guy on facebook and practically facebook stalks this kid!
But wait! There's more! Then he tells practically EVERYONE he comes across about this. Two of the people he talks to know this poor kid. One of them even goes to a ward that meets in the same building and said that they would introduce me to him this Sunday. I am mortified! I get to try to go to a new ward and start out with public humiliation! I'm hoping that I can successfully evade them tomorrow, I mean, in my opinion, if he wants to introduce himself then he will. If he doesn't he should have that right and shouldn't be pushed! Gah! I just wish people would leave well enough alone!
I expressed my displeasure of this to my parents and now they're mad at me.
I'm just so ANGRY about it! Mostly I guess because my parents are angry at me. Once again, I'm the bad guy. I'm the one who can't be better so I fail. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of always being expected to take the moral highroad when my dad can act anyway he wants to and get away with it. I am sick to death of it! GAH! I just want to be trusted to run my own life for ONCE and not be judged for it. I mean my father is always telling me that I need to look a certain way and act a certain way to attract a guy. Every time I fight back the impulse to just let him have it. Right now, I'm not particularly interested in dating, it's just not on my radar. Going to school and getting a job is all that's occupying my thoughts right now and I wish he'd just respect that. When I get to whatever school I'm going to, THEN I will start looking into the whole dating thing. And if I happen to meet someone here and things happen on their own, I'm fine with that, I just wish he'd stop pursuing it so hard core.
Does that make me a horrible person?
Am I wrong for that?
Saturday, March 6, 2010
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